so i call it a mess,some will say its a disaster...to try & say that i still love u is so damn hard. well i think u noe,but u are just ignoring.well i dun wanna make u feel akward or anything but i just hope for the best for u. as i said before, to see u happy will be the most rewarding gift that u'll ever give me. i'll always be here for u no matter what,remember. i've said it countless of times,well it was like two years ago and im still here. well im already ready for the day when u'll really fade away out of my life.i just hope that u'll be happy. coz i dun wanna have u making any decisions. its set. its wad god wants.its wad ur fate is. u can cry as much as u want but when its fate,thats that. i'll never make u leave him. never. well maybe if he gets to know that u're meeting me behind his back,he could leave u.but i noe,that will never happen.

my life is so complicated...

recently,i've had this sudden feeling of being lonely. i've started to feel that i have no one to tell my everyday to,share my days with,hear my thoughts,make me smile. it just came to me.just like that,bang! & i've decided not to celebrate my birthday this year. so my plan is to stay at home the whole day and lock myself in my room the whole day. well as i noe, not alot of people read my blog so......i cried alone when i think of my birthday.i feel so sad i dun noe why. well birthdays are supposed to make people happy but it seems so depressing to me when i think of it. never really felt like this before,well maybe its just my life. i've wasted it.

when u feel that its all been fixed,that when that someone can make u change ur life,that someone goes,and leaves u all alone...well thats unfair

well carear first now.i wanna earn as much so at the end of the day when i wanna settle down,i noe i wont have problems with money... =)

16th Nov...my bro my best is getting married. well at last,after all this year,im happy for u

the person who i noe that will always be there for me...